Feeling great tonight! Tired but great! I'm becoming more conscious of what and why I'm eating...especially in the evening. When I'm tired I tend to want to eat more to keep myself awake for some reason! I'm not even hungry. Funny how different emotions and senses are associated with food! Anyway, my first day back on track went very well!
There are so many other things I could be doing in the evening besides eating. Right at this moment singing isn't one of them even though I love to sing! My voice is starting to feel hoarse! I've been singing like crazy this past week! Music is one of the things in my life that gives me great joy. What an amazing means of worshiping our Creator and also expressing myself! It's also something that I think I have become better at in the last year or so because my confidence level has increased so much. I have the opportunity to sing a solo in a couple weeks. It makes me both excited and nervous.
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Friday, September 12, 2008
Starting Over
AHHHH!!!! I have not been consistently writing in this blog. I've had some absolutely wonderful things happen in my life since the last blog, yet unfortunately I've become a little complacent. I started having problems coping with stress. I was overwhelmed. I'm kinda disappointed in myself that I've gained a bit of weight back. I have this very real fear of gaining back all the weight I lost.
I can't let food be in control of my life anymore. Why do I use food for comfort? It cannot take away our fears and stress. God alone can satisfy. So I have to stop and really think about what is causing this stress and just DEAL WITH IT ALREADY! I have some other great coping mechanisms. Exercise is great! I love music! I'll have to write about that more tomorrow night because I have SO much to share. Writing to work through my stress is probably the best and actually my favourite method of coping.
I have been thinking a lot lately about some of the differences in who I am now vs who I used to be. A lot of people from my high school wouldn't necessarily recognize me now...not merely because of my physical appearance. I'm quite social and outgoing...and sometimes a little silly compared to the introverted studious girl that never stood up for herself. I'm at another crossroads in my life again...for many reasons. Many changes too numerous to go into tonight! Most notably for this blog is that I am changing my health focus now. After about 9 months of intense training, I'm now shifting (at least for now) towards eating healthier again and possibly plastic surgery to remove some of the loose skin remaining even after exercising.
This is my new beginning...I CHALLENGE MYSELF! I have to pick myself up and start again...realizing I am not perfect, nor do I want to be. I want to lose a little more weight...but most importantly I want to live healthy as I had been, physically, emotionally and spiritually. I want to be the best woman of God that I can and shake off the chains that hold me back. I hope I can use this blog regularly again for accountability.
Galatians 5:1: "It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery."
I can't let food be in control of my life anymore. Why do I use food for comfort? It cannot take away our fears and stress. God alone can satisfy. So I have to stop and really think about what is causing this stress and just DEAL WITH IT ALREADY! I have some other great coping mechanisms. Exercise is great! I love music! I'll have to write about that more tomorrow night because I have SO much to share. Writing to work through my stress is probably the best and actually my favourite method of coping.
I have been thinking a lot lately about some of the differences in who I am now vs who I used to be. A lot of people from my high school wouldn't necessarily recognize me now...not merely because of my physical appearance. I'm quite social and outgoing...and sometimes a little silly compared to the introverted studious girl that never stood up for herself. I'm at another crossroads in my life again...for many reasons. Many changes too numerous to go into tonight! Most notably for this blog is that I am changing my health focus now. After about 9 months of intense training, I'm now shifting (at least for now) towards eating healthier again and possibly plastic surgery to remove some of the loose skin remaining even after exercising.
This is my new beginning...I CHALLENGE MYSELF! I have to pick myself up and start again...realizing I am not perfect, nor do I want to be. I want to lose a little more weight...but most importantly I want to live healthy as I had been, physically, emotionally and spiritually. I want to be the best woman of God that I can and shake off the chains that hold me back. I hope I can use this blog regularly again for accountability.
Galatians 5:1: "It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery."
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