Hunger for Him

I think one of the coolest yet humbling things is that we as humans are so far from perfect yet God loves us! I am so sad that I haven't been spending time with Him lately and I'm really feeling it. We went to a women's brunch today at church and God convicted me. He is faithful and knows exactly what we need when we need it. God has truly blessed my life and I've just taken all He's done for me on my life's journey for granted. I'm generally happy with where my life is going. I have a job I love. I have some great Christian friends. God has also blessed me with a wonderful boyfriend. However, I have been struggling with night snacking again lately. I focus on the food part, but the interesting thing I've realized is that I'm not hungry at all. It might sound strange at first but my "hunger" is for something deeper. What I'm REALLY longing for is spending time with the One who is the closest and truest Friend I could ever wish for. God is the One who truly satisfies. He loves us and wants to use us just as we are. I think that's why I feel led to write this particular blog today.

So this is not the happiest of moments for me. I'm SO frustrated and disgusted today. I found out there's a year waiting list to even see the plastic surgeon for a possible abdominoplasty. I just feel like I've done so well with myself and this is the final component. I'm not very patient at all. I've done so much work on myself that I'm frustrated that I still have problems with my skin. I would even just like to know how much I can correct on my own without surgery but I have to wait a freakin' year to find out!

I want to eat healthy and exercise but I've been at a plateau for so long and all the toning has done nothing for the loose skin even though I feel so much healthier and am in the best shape of my life! I feel like I have hit a brick wall!

I'm actually wondering how many people read my blog because I am looking for some suggestions!