Hungry

Having a rough couple days. I feel FAMISHED, but I'm not sure how much of it is hunger for food because of my training and how much is hunger for the God who wants me to grow closer to Him. I have also been getting caught up in my anxieties and I lapse into the old coping mechanisms. Sometimes I start eating and can't stop. My friend/trainer likens it to a switch that gets turned on and you can't turn it off. It's very common, but a disturbing feeling for me. I still have this very real fear of going back to who I once was, over 100 lbs ago. Food can feel like a great source of safety and comfort, but where's the real love, companionship and lasting happiness? Bad food choices often make us sick and they eventually lead to really serious health problems!

God's timing is perfect. This afternoon, when I was completely frustrated, He gave me something really amazing and I'm confident I'll be back on track again! What I love about doing this blog is that it keeps me honest and humble, and I hope that it will be a motivation to those who read it. I pray that God uses this blog in a powerful way.